May 8, 2005

Dirge

For Milou
2004-2005

"They are gone. They are gone to feed the roses. Elegant and curled
Is the blossom. Fragrant is the blossom. I know. But I do not approve.
More precious was the light in your eyes than all the roses in the world."

~ from Dirge Without Music by Edna St. Vincent Millay

milou_and_green_bean

sleeping_milou

Posted by Monoceros at May 8, 2005 8:50 PM
Comments

awww... where will she go when you leave?

Posted by: tiggie at May 10, 2005 5:38 AM

Erm... I think Tiggie may have missed the point. I hope not, but I think so. :-(

Posted by: BP at May 10, 2005 7:02 AM

oh no... i have, thanks for point it out BP!... i am so sorry. oh dear how did it happen?!

Posted by: tiggie at May 10, 2005 10:22 AM

I'm not sure why. She was fine during the week, but when the weekend swung by, she became sluggish. I'd seen her like this before (when I first noticed her leg injury), but she got better even before seeing the vet, so I thought she would eventually come out of her stupor. I changed her litter and then let her sleep. She was so weak when I took her out of her cage. Could barely move. Just dragging herself around. She crept into a corner and lay down. Sunday morning - she hadn't moved from her position at all. Eyes closed, still breathing though, but weakly. Before LK and I went out for lunch, he looked in on her and said she'd stopped breathing. I touched her body; even in such a small creature, that stiffness is unmistakable. I hated it. She was still a baby. Could've been something wrong internally - she drank and peed a great deal, as if the water were just going through her. I don't know. I miss her terribly. I put her in a box with her beloved wheel, packed it with litter and paper, sealed it. Lin Kiat did it actually, I didn't have the strength. She was such a little creature, but she was very special. Haven't taken her death well.

Posted by: monoceros at May 10, 2005 11:03 AM

oh no... i am really sorry. *big hugs*

Posted by: tiggie at May 10, 2005 11:13 AM

So sorry for the loss Vannie, Milou's gone to a better place...
Haven't met her myself, but that sweet face on your blog is enough for anyone to miss her...

Posted by: Bunny at May 10, 2005 11:18 AM

oh no, so sorry to hear this. Your blog readers will miss her too. :(

*hugs*

Posted by: dsd at May 10, 2005 8:42 PM

am really sorry to hear about milou =( please take care.

Posted by: a l at May 10, 2005 11:03 PM

Thank you, Bunny, DSD, A L. It's still a little hard to wake up in the morning and see her empty cage. I expect I will get used to it eventually, though I don't want to. I want to grieve and grieve; very unhealthy, but getting over her death is veering on forgetting her completely.

Posted by: monoceros at May 11, 2005 8:11 AM

Oh, I'm so sorry Monoceros.

Posted by: Seine at May 11, 2005 10:13 AM

I am so sorry about Milou. Do take care ok. Hugs.

Posted by: fatgirl at May 11, 2005 1:17 PM

Hello Seine, Fatgirl - thank you for writing, for the hugs. I'll be okay. Will distract myself with packing. =)

Posted by: monoceros at May 12, 2005 9:02 AM

oh dear - i am so sorry - she was lovely - stay strong, monoceros.

shin

Posted by: shin at May 13, 2005 3:26 AM